Gurauan Berkasih..

Ada x eh tjk lagu Gurauan Berkasih? Nape aku rs mcm ada..mmm kali ni nk citer pasal air bah yg melanda perhubungan aku ng Renggos..kan la dok cbuk2 kesah banjir,banjir jugak la air mata aku 2 hari yg lepas..

I think its normal when we r so close to sumbody, we tend to be over sensitive and overreact..so do I, its just a small thing but I do make it BIG..actualy wveryhting went smoothly dat nite, but suddenly he told me that he will b oustation next week..so I was like ok, behave urself and bla bla..when he suddely laugh n tell me, ayg slalu ckp mcm tu, ragu2 sgt ng I, if I buat camtu camne? I ckp I won't accept u anymore la,,but we all diam kejap n I ask how bout my parents?they know bout us, then he suddenly makes a remarks yg I xleh accept n I start nangis n scream I don't want that to happen..I can hear he tries to consoled me n fem minutes after dat, I stop crying but keep on saying I takut b, I x nak bende tu jadi, pls don do dat to me, my parents are everything I valued most in this world..do wuteva to me not my parents..I keep on saying I don't want nn scared..then he almost cry too saoid he so sorry, he just make jokes yada yada..then he ask me..do I believe him? N I answered I don't know..he silent than hang up the phone..I tried call him bck n he didn't answer n the sms too..I cried the wholw night, the next day and only then after 2 days of silent treatement,he sms ne saying he don't know wut else he shud do to make me believe him..dia sgt2 kecewa bila I jwb entah mlm tu..like dia xde pape dah..huhu..then he call me n we discuss the matter n clear things out..dia mintak maaf on keterlanjuran kata dian he didn't mean to say that..and promise such issue xkan diguraukan lagi..aku pon mtk maaf sb aku sgt2 panik n over sensitif.

Sepanjang 2 hari tu, hidup aku seriusly suram..tgj2 buat keje nanges..kuar joli pon leh nanges..betapa aku terasa dia xde di sisi aku..aku dah x reti nk bersuka ria tanpa dia..mcm yg dia kata, sebahagian hidup dia adalah aku..dan aku kini yakin dia adalah pemilik satu dari 7 tulang rusukku..kalu dipanjang kan jodoh kami, aku mmg sedia menjadi isteri dia..

Skang ni aku tgh mentally n physically prepared nk g jupe mak dia..maklumlah mak dia tus, x moden cam mama, jd aku kn pndi tackle la..dah la Renggos ank bongsu..serius aku cuak..iAllah, rsnye kami dh dpt tarikh tunang...iAllah thn depan..buleh la aku buat preparation sket2..dia kata dia ada la sket2 duit nk kawin , jd xde la masalah sgt..lega aku dgr..Doakanlah semoga jodoh kami panjang..pas balik jupe parents dia, kami tgh atur utk kedua2 belah parents kuar mkn sama2..ni idea Renggos..semoga sumannye lancar..xmo la gaduh2 lagi hehehe..rsnye dlm hjg bulan ni or bln 12 la aku balik kg dia..heheh walaupon ni bukan 1st time aku g umah dia, tp kali ni pulang sbgi bakal menantu hahah..rituh g beraya je..tu pon bw adik..hohoho gementar...